My car broke down on me last week, and I'm glad that my job is close by that I can walk to work. So, for four days I didn't have to catch a bus to take babygirl to school and then come way back on my side of town to go to work and then do it all again just to go get her. She stayed with grandma. My job from my house is two miles away, so I walked it to and from. Walking doesn't bother me I'm used to it just ddon't do it much since I've had the car. Well on the way to work one morning I'm enjoying my walk to work, and I noticed a red truck slow down and the guy turned his truck around and got out and said, 'Hi my name is Lorenzo and I thought you where so attractive I wanted to give you my number. You got a boyfriend.' Now why does this only happen when I'm walking and not driving? I told him my name and told him no I didn't have a boyfriend. Flattered by the attention. Made my day a little brighter. I took his number and still have it in my purse. Have not called him yet. I appreciated the way he got out of his truck and spoke to me, I don't like guys who talk to you from there car, makes the whole meeting feel cheap. Nice looking man in his late 30's early 40's.
So, why have I not called this man? Well, I'm in transition with my life spiritually right now, putting together my poetry book, and the last thing I need is a brother to throw me off my transition. I don't need a boyfriend, I just need a friend, platonic. That word just hurt alot of men's ears. Platonic. Yeah, I said it and I meant it. When I'm ready to hook up with someone I need a MAN, not a boyfriend, don't have time to play with anybody. Just need someone here right now who is on the same vibration and wave link that I am, who will be here for me to talk too when I need to talk, scream , cuss, cry, whatever it may be. I LOVE men, but I have to focus on me, and babygirl, and friends are all that I need at this point right now. Lorenzo was looking for a girlfriend, because he kept asking me did I have a boyfriend.
Second, I'm scared. I've been married several times, so what I know is being married. It's been a long time since I did this dating thing, and at this point and time really don't want too. I rather have a genuine friendship with a guy, if that still exist, and get to learn about him that way, then to date him. I've always thought of dating as being really superficial. When the time is right things will work itself out for me, it always does.
