Lydia Durham: Daughter of Trump & Houston?

 

 

When I came across this picture I nearly spit the food out that I was eating.  Then I said, "This can't be true. Stop it.  I got to research this one."  That is what I did. I found a couple interviews.  No one will take on her story. Why? Is she the real Durham report?  This woman and her children's lives are at stake, and no "truthers" want to interview her.  Put your bias to the side and get her story out, and let people come to their own opinion.

Until then here are a couple interviews I found.

She mentions this person in her interview 

Lydia Durham:Trumps Daughter pt1

Lydia Durham pt 2

Anonymous Launches Lydia Durham into the Universe

Lydia's Petition 

https://www.change.org/p/who-is-lydia-durham-is-she-the-unknown-trafficked-daughter-of-45th-president-donald-j-trump 

Now go make your own unbiased opinion.

Trumps Illegitimate Daughter Lydia Durham

Why I Am Celibate

                                               

I first wrote this piece in 2017. Eight years later, its truth still holds: celibacy isn’t about denial, it’s about protection, reflection, and honoring your energy until love shows up in its highest form. My journey has changed, but this message remains.

Celibacy is nothing new to me. I consider it almost like a partner in itself.  But there are times when being celibate gives me the blues and I just want to fulfill that urge, and then I then I look out into the world and go, naw I'm good.  Celibacy for me started after I was married to my first husband.  It was my way to reflect on the relationship that I just got out of. Then two years later I met someone else and ended up marrying him. Mind you I was a practicing Muslim at that time, and the Sisters I hung around where older than I were. They were mother figures to me. I was just in my early 20's when I embraced this religion.  So, it was taught that a woman should not be without a husband for a long time, and that she should not have sex outside being married or not married, and that she should be married. To sum up the number of times I was married, it was four, and only in one of those marriages did I have a beautiful girl.

Anyways, the space I gave myself between those four marriages to breathe and reflect was two years before I would meet the next one and then get married.  After, the fourth marriage, being Muslim was a wrap for me because his behavior was the one that really woke me up and scared me, being that I had a young baby girl at the time.  A year after him I walked away from it all, so you think since I made myself free I would have a ball and go to town with my social life since I missed eight years of it I would be just out here doing my thing, but I wasn't.  It didn't hold anything special for me before Islam and it didn't hold anything special for me after I left.

It would be 8 years later when I would meet someone and it only lasted two months even though it felt like a year. Really it did.  It meant he wasn't supposed to be in my cipher or we were just cleaning up some old past life junk.  I would then learn from a friend of mines, who is into Metaphysics, that when two people have sex they are also merging together as one spiritually, which then makes them married to one another, spiritually. I'm sitting there thinking, "oh my goodness there are some people I don't even want to be married to spiritually let alone physically  any longer. My goodness." I did end up saying this to him, and he laughed at me.  I was serious.  I would then do study on my own to learn more about this, because there was other reasons behind why I chose to be Celibate but wasn't understanding why.  

I ended up meeting a beautiful guy in 2015 that only ended up lasting a year, because all he wanted to do was party and hang out, and I'm not going to throw him under the bus because his spirit was beautiful. He just wasn't ready to be with me yet.  Sex is a beautiful thing, but after you've been around them for a while will make you think, "why did I have sex with this person."  Then you feel like you're stuck.  Sex is more so a spiritual connection to another person. It's more than just two bodies creating friction off of one another. It's a body, spirit connection, so guys everything you feel or think while having sex with a woman, you transfer those feelings to her, so don't be surprised when she comes back at you down the road cussing you out or mentally thinking some type of way about you.  Women are natural receivers of energy whether they realize it or not.  Any negative thoughts about her, she is going to pick those up.  If you can't have sex with a woman without having a negative thought then you don't need to have sex with her. How I feel.

For now I'm comfortable with her, and until the right guy shows up with the right energy, and is present in the here and now of our relationship, and is not broken looking for somebody to heal and fix him up, 'cause that was the past narrative of men in my life that I no longer accept, then I will be waiting for him to show up.  It's about truly loving yourself. Sometimes that love you give to others needs to be held on for yourself, because no one can love you like you love you.  Everybody that comes into your life is just an add-on. When a person leaves you, you have to be comfortable in your space to be okay with the fact that no one else is there but you. It's Okay to miss people when they decide its not working because that's part of the healing process. That's time for you reflect on what happened and how you can better improve on yourself. I've learned everybody in your life is there to teach you something.  So, in your line of relationships past and present, intimate or not, what have you learned about yourself from dealing with other people because this is how you grow as an individual. That's what relationships are growing as a couple together but still checking in to see how you've grown as an individual.

So, why am I Celibate? Because I seeing what I see I don't want to deal with it in my cipher which means I need to vibrate a little higher, and I don't want to spiritually have anyone her who is just going to be a parasite. I've had those too. It's not about merely having someone here, because someone who is here can be like a lump sitting on a log.  I want more and I understand what my more is.

Entities Among Us

The Sensual Collection

Excerpt from " The Diary"

12/31/2010

"Why do I find myself in the damnest positions. I’m in the sixty-nine with this man’s tongue in my pussy sucking me so well that I had to stop a few times giving him head. I never had someone sit in and watch me fuck my client – especially a client’s woman. She had the look of enjoyment in her eyes as I sucked her man’s dick. I was enjoying her watching my damn self. She is watching me sucking her man’s dick, and I’m getting off on this shit. I never felt so turned on having someone watch me. I think it could probably get a little addictive feeling this adrenaline rushing through me. The more excited I became the wetter I get, and the wetter I get the deeper this man was sucking and playing with my clit. I found his tongue in my pussy and would masturbate saying to him, “Fuck me! I need you to fuck me like it’s yours!”

I never had anyone to suck my pussy like that, and when he finished sucking and licking my pussy that was it. It was over. He got up, slapped me on the ass and said, “That was some good pussy”, and walked out the bedroom leaving me wanting more. Didn’t he hear me say fuck me or did he think this shit was sexual banter? My pussy is throbbing and I needed the dick fucking me right about now. His woman is still sitting in the room watching me with this perplexed looked on my face, and says, “Did you expect him to really fuck you?” “Well, yeah I kind of did. That’s fucked up how he left me!” “Sweetheart that’s my job. I understand his needs and I have no problems with it as long as I’m present, and I can fuck her too.” She approaches the bed and I have to admit she was beautiful. If I were a man I would be loving to get with that all the time. She climbed in the bed and massages my back. Got damn it felt good, and then she kisses it. I’m nervous as hell, but I can’t show it. I can tell this one would feed off that. Rule number one, never show your client emotional weakness. “I don’t fuck women.” “You have already been paid for, so I don’t think you have a say in the matter.” “Well, if that’s the case I’m fucking you like I want to fuck you.” She pulled off her blue silk dress to reveal her naked body. Her beautiful smooth coco brown skin, her breasts were firm, hips wide, ass medium sized, but round. I found myself sucking gently on her nipples and caressing her back and her ass. I flicker my tongue over her nipples and sucked her breast. “I need you in the starfish position darling. Your man left my pussy throbbing and I need to fuck.” My left leg over her right, my right leg under her left and our pussies touched and I began to grind, and she does too. Oh, how I wish I could actually fuck her pussy. Our excitement rising and I go in for her breast again. When we came we were like two uncontrollable animals, moaning, grabbing, and grinding on one another. I hope she enjoyed that because it was the last time I would fuck a woman. I do envy the man that does, because fucking her was enjoyable.

 

2/11/2011

I don’t have the most glamorous or admired profession in the world, but it pays. It pays beautifully. I’m not saying that this is a life style to shot for because its not. It wasn’t one that I was shooting for or even thought about having. So, I guess your wondering how I entered this world of ‘sex and sin’. I actually got into this because of a guy that I was dating while I was in college. He didn’t get me into it. I am an engineering major and college is very expensive and I did not want to ask my parents for the money so I decided to find a way to earn the money myself. Robert, the guy I was dating, was the son of rich parents and he invited me to a party back in July. The people I met, all were not pretentious fucks like I thought they might be, but in the course of this party I met a lot of people who could get me in the field of Engineering once I graduated. I kept in touch with a lot of people that I met through Robert, even though he and I grew apart our last year of high school. It broke my heart. People thought we were going to go to the same college and one day get married, but it didn’t turn out that way.

 

I got a Pell Grant and two scholarships both for five hundred dollars, to help me out with school, plus I was working at a very upscale boutique. Things were good for a while. I was living near campus in a small apartment within walking distance. The ‘sex and sin’ part didn’t come in until I met Dan. Dan was a gorgeous man that stood 6’2”, tan skin, athletic build, and his hair was always cut close to his head. He was intelligent, with a sense of humor, beautiful light brown eyes, and a smile that would melt any woman, that’s if the eyes didn’t get you first. Getting to know him he was an absolute sweetheart, but he was not one, I would come to find out later that would settle down and claim one woman in his life. I envy the woman that can make him ‘settle’. Dan and I dated in two thousand and ten for about six months, and it was genuinely a beautiful six months of getting to know him and being with him, but the one thing that Dan did a lot while we were dating was after having sex he would leave four hundred dollars on the night stand. He would always stay for a while and then leave sometime during the night. I asked him why he did that, and his answer was always because he was helping me out with school. Dan leaving money all the time after we had sex was too much for me. It never sat right with me until one day he told me that he did it because I was such a “good lay”, and that we were friends but we were friends with benefits, he was benefiting from me and in return he benefited me by paying me four hundred dollars every time we had sex. The other word he used was that I was “fuckable.” Fucked my world up with that comment. That hurt me so much that I no longer spoke to him after that.

 

Still had my job at the boutique but my hours were being cut which means that the good money I was making was also being downsized and that shit hurt. I could no longer do it on the salary that I was making, so I had to find a way to help subsidize my income back to what I was used too. I was accustomed to the money I was getting and living a certain way. With the money I was living in a Loft now, and loving my freedom. It was Dan that would give me my first taste of money for sex, but it was me who started to pimp me out. I considered myself a high price ho. An escort to men with money. You couldn’t dish out to me four hundred or more, then I wanted nothing to do with you. I knew exactly where to find my clientele. I was introduced to the rich in two thousand and nine, so I knew where to find them. My friends never found out what I did, and I damn sure made it a priority that my parents didn’t find out what I did. No one would ever know because no one who personally knew me hung out where the rich hung out, so I was good to go. I first would start with a name change. I was no longer Sheryl Conway, I was Divine. Divine Mitchell.

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2/12/2011

The thing about selling me out is that I get to work the schedule that I want to work. I have no one to report too, and I don’t have to share what I get with anybody. I still work my job and I go to school. My two worlds do not collide and I made sure that they never do. My clients are one world and my personal life is another. Clients never get real information about who I am. I even have a fake id made up with the name Divine Mitchell. All my friends know when I do work my ‘high end’ job is that I’m going out on a date with a guy. We all have codes we use in case something is not going quite right.

I use to hear when I was in high school, then again my first year of college that if a woman wanted to feel comfortable with her self-esteem, then she should work in a strip club at least for a night because it is there that she can get in touch with her feminine self. I would always think you know what yaw full of shit with that. But now I kind of understand what they meant by that. Here you have a bunch of men looking at you like eye candy, and for that moment in time you are the object of their desire. You are there to make them feel good, but in the same sense because you do make them feel this way it is boosting your self-esteem as a woman, because you are using what the lord gave you and men are naturally attracted to that, if they love and appreciate women. Soon your self-esteem is boosting and you walking around here like the bad bitch you naturally are. Every woman on this earth is a bad bitch, most just don’t tap into her because they were made to feel like being feminine and having the self-esteem of being a woman is wrong. It’s not wrong. I’m not even discussing what I do anymore. It’s about feeling like a woman whether you have a man in your life or not. Nothing should take us out of having our self-esteem and feeling feminine and sexy as hell all the damn time. We need to stop punishing ourselves for wanting to feel sexy even for our damn self. My rant is now over."

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To Fear Or Not To Fear

                                                By Imani M.

This issue has being running through my mind for the past week, but it was even more so while reading what has been going on in the world and then watching this movie called, Left Behind: War of Worlds. Not a religious person but it does relate to somethings that are happening right now.

In the beginning Louis Gosset Jr., who plays the President of the U.S., explains what is happening. On of the things he mentions is the vanishing of millions of people off the Earth.  Right now in the year 2012, we are to move into higher states of consciousness. For those who do move on will be as if they disappeared from the Earth.  There is another movie that deals with this subject that escapes me at the moment, but it speaks about the vanishing of millions of people off the Earth.

I'm not a big watcher of doomsday movies, but if you look at them with fear then this is how you will except them into your life, and your life is now dominated by things that keep you in fear because now this is the frequency you are now choosing to resonate on.  But when you look at things on a spiritual level and understand that you can choose how you except information you can resonate your frequency out of fear, and except things as information to keep you up to date on what is going on around you.

The motive of things going on around you are to keep you distracted from the big picture of what is really going on around you. Television, sitcoms, news, which is filtered information. Music industry with who is or is not the Illuminati or working with the Illuminati, Kony, SOPA, NDAA, Monsanto, its enough to leave you feeling helpless and scared. All ways remember behind one small distraction lies the bigger distraction, and the people in the U.S. have been distracted. How else can laws be passed all of a sudden? Because while we were distracted by the little distraction the bigger action was being pulled into place. Think about everything that has happened between 2001 up until now, and the many new laws that have been pulled into place.

I placed the link to the Left Behind clip because it spoke a lot to me. So, now we're in the middle of the race and you have to decide, "To Fear or Not To Fear."  There will be more information put out that will help keep you in your low vibration of fear.  You want to try and raise your vibration then one of things is to stop watching the news. That stuff will make a 2 year old cry. Stop watching it before you go to sleep because that's not helping you either.  Want a bigger challenge? Stop watching it for a week, and see how different you feel.  Just because its on television doesn't make 100% true.

It's now time to raise your vibration out of the fear that the media and government want to keep you in.  Before we all came into this world we wrote our scripts in the ethereal realm, don't get diverted from your path.

Tips on Raising Your Vibration

• Turn off the TV.  Try it for 5 to 7 days and see how you feel.
• Stop reading the paper as well for 5 to 7 days and see how you feel.
• Start reading things that are more uplifting for your spirit and mind.
• Mediatate.  If your just starting do it for 10 minutes a day.
• Stay away from negative people/situations.
• Do things that make you happy.
• Stay away from low vibrational music. (This means music that demonizes women or uses profanity.  Music is not like music used to be from the 1980's on back, but there are some good artist who are played on the radio that make music you can feel. I'll post a few videos I've found here.)
• Surround yourself with good spirited people.

These are some of the things that will help you raise your vibration.  The one I left out that's the most important is to LAUGH. To laugh is what pulls you up out of your darkness.  This is work that you must do for yourself and yourself only. Anytime you have to adjust yourself to make someone else feel comfortable or better about themselves leaves nothing but you making yourself unhappy and uncomfortable.  Do this for you because you're ready to do this for you.  Raise your vibration from being in the Root Chakra to the Heart Chakra.

                                               

                               

Please learn to Not Fear.  It's not an easy thing to do I know, because this world has so fearful.  It's time now to re-program yourself  and to tap back into your spirit. Your spirit is fearless, but your mind stuck in this construct since the day you were born has learned how to fear.  Know and understand and overstand that you cannot reach the vibration of the heart chakra until you begin to change you.  The heart is truely 100% accepting, loving. On the path to this you will begin to see truths that where hidden to you because you were not ready to accept them.  You will have to go through this and clear this issues in order to enter the heart chakra completely.  The goal is to enter the heart chakra and to stay there.  You will know when you enter it because you will feel a sensation you have not probably ever felt before.  You will know this when you get here.

Love & Light

Enjoy the wave

Lectures and Music

Lizz Wright - "Home"

Maiysha - "Chase"

Dr.  Mitchell Gibson - Spiritual Healing pt.1

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pt3

pt4

pt5

Clearing Your Space (Body)

Love and Light,

 I found this video channel online by a guy named Ryan. Ryan is a star seed that just woke up. Well we are all star seeds from somewhere else we just have not fully awaken to this yet because you choose to stay asleep in this 3D world right now. In his videos, he answered a lot of questions I have been having for a while now. This is not just something you can talk to people about who are not yet there where you are,or experiencing what you are experiencing.

He gave out a technique to help connect you to your other higher selves on the other dimensions. Yes, we do have higher selves. There are other versions of us in a parallel world as well. Think I’m crazy or just tripping that’s it quite alright.

                                                                       

This technique has you to clear, adjust, align, clear yourself in this dimension and gives the command for your higher selves to do the same. So, Friday night before I went to bed I decided to try this. You can do this in the shower or a steam room, because you’re cleaning yourself you need some place for all that negativity to go once you do this, because you are not just cleaning yourself here but all your higher selves are cleaning as well. I didn’t feel any difference after I did it. Being honest because I did not. So, I get out the shower and I go and meditate. As I’m meditating, I see a few faces pop up that are clear that I have not met in my journey here in this world. It was a few but not a lot to disrupt my meditation. After I meditate, I lay down to go to sleep. As I do the faces pop in now more frequently. They are of different colors and they are all happy and saying hi to me. It didn’t freak me out because I’m used to faces coming in when I close my eyes from time to time to say hi. This was more frequent then what I am used too. They are usually all male faces, and African American, but this time I had women who came in to say hi and they were white, African American. It was cool to see that.

So, one is supposed to do this clearing everyday, but last night I didn’t. I was tired and so I ate and went to sleep. So, even though I didn’t feel the clearing while I was taking a shower Friday, I guess on another level it still worked in its own way for me. If Ryan (dero7) ever comes across this blog I just want to say to you thank you for your videos, because you have answered questions that I have had about this and other subjects as well. Thank you.

“When the student is ready, the teacher will come”, which is very true. I’ve had teachers come to me physically and through learning online, and I thank them all. But understand that they can only teach you what you seek to know. It is on you to carry it out through your action. Your action only, makes the difference. Maybe some time at some point later I’ll give my story on how I’m waking up.

Enjoy your Journey

Don't be afraid just ride the wave

                                                            

       


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